Blueprints For A Small Wooden Catapult

the time has come, and I do.
can not give without receiving, is absurd. And this breaks my heart more and more.
I do not believe in love, good for nothing more than to hurt and harboring false hopes.
reinvest my process as looking for a year, but I know it will be even more painful than back then.
I will feel and suffer, and when it gets completely asestaré the knife. And I do not care in the conscuencias others, just look for my own release.

Yes, I am self-centered and selfish to the point. But I need to survive.